It’s Not Your Fault

Rebecca Ripple:

As an individual on the autistic spectrum, I can relate to most of these. Not all, but most. Either way, it’s so beautifully written, and it’s definitely worth a read, whether you’re on the spectrum or not.

Originally posted on Musings of an Aspie:

It’s not your fault.

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Some days I feel like I should get this tattooed on my forehead.

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When I withdraw into myself and fall silent, it’s not because of anything you did.

When I blow up over some inconsequential thing you’ve said, know that the real trigger happened hours ago.

When you do something that unexpectedly makes me feel trapped or panicked, there was no way you could have known until I told you.

When I zone out in the middle of a conversation, it has nothing to do with how interesting the conversation is.

When I ignore you because I’m engrossed in writing or reading, it’s not a reflection on how I feel about our relationship.

When I twist out of your embrace or push your hand away, it doesn’t mean you’ve done something wrong.

When I forget to call you, it’s not because I’ve forgotten you.

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Three YouTube Comments, One Ripplistically Long Reply

Hey, folks! I need your opinions on something… Can you spare a moment to lend an ear?

First, for your convenience, here’s a link to the YouTube video being discussed below: “You could Die laughing, watch it why”

Here’s another link, leading directly to the comment thread.

Hopefully, when he/she sees the reply I left him/her, Chase won’t think I’m “uneducated” just for standing by the opinion that the above-linked video is, indeed, funny… I’m sure you’ll all see what I mean when you watch it, whether you agree with me or not. :P

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chase0case:
stupid!

Letanca:
not more then you are

chase0case:
+Letanca do you know me? sure not! when you speak with with strangers respect your self first and then respect the others, this is totally stupid Video and it’s just Mockery of the Church! it’s funny for the uneducated people

Rebecca Ripple:
+chase0case Okay, that’s just… not right. *rolls eyes* Please read through what I’m about to say, because I, for one, feel strongly about this issue.

First off, religious kids in a choir can have harmless, musical fun if they want to, can’t they? Or is that honestly against your religion, sir or ma’am? (Sorry, but I can’t really tell which gender you are from your username…) I don’t want to sound condescending at all, especially since I don’t know you any more closely than +Letanca does. But patience, please; just hear me out.

I agree that Letanca’s choice to insult your / a total stranger’s intelligence is pretty unreasonable since you only called the video stupid, and not an actual person or group of people. At the same time, though, if you so thoroughly dislike this video, I’d suggest that it’s better to leave it alone and find another one that’s better suited to your interests. Having been trolled on the internet myself, I am of the firm belief that if you don’t like something here on the web, why bother continuing to watch, read or participate in it? There are better ways to spend your time than calling videos “stupid” just because you don’t like them, especially when those videos weren’t intended to incite, or to use your word, “mock” anyone.

I can’t imagine that the performance in this video was not an actual part of a genuine choral concert, either at a religious school or at a church. Why would a Christian school or a church want to mock The Church? With all due respect, I think you took this video a tad too personally. If you don’t want to see it again, that’s fine; you don’t have to, and I wouldn’t recommend it. However, if you want to continue labeling as “stupid” a video of talented young vocalists singing fun, humorous lyrics in a classical-style format before an audience, I hope you’ll have the common decency to decide against that as well.

In conclusion, as the person voicing this opinion, I feel I should add that I’m not immune to regret. Everyone who is old enough to legally comment on YouTube videos (in other words, ages 13 and up) has said something to someone that they later feel remorseful about (or at least, they should), myself included. Every teenager and adult has acted irrationally out of uncontrolled/poorly-controlled emotion — again, myself included. But I hope that after reading my full comment, you’ll make the choice not to be judgmental in the same way again. After all, not every video worth posting will please you as an individual. However, as a member of YouTube/Google, it’s your responsibility to choose your reaction with an open, clear mind.

Thank you for reading my admittedly lengthy reply. I hope it will mean something to you for the future.

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So, what do you think? Did I totally overdo it with that huge buncha words, or did I make a decent point? I hope I made my point after all that, but let me know either way.

And by the way, how do you like the video? :) Did you smile and/or laugh, like I did — or did you have a hard time enjoying it, like Chase and a few other commenters did? Please feel free to leave a comment on this post and let me know how you feel about it. I promise to always reply to comments on my blog, even if it’s just to say, “thanks for sharing your opinion.” :)

Thank you for reading, and have an amazing day, week, or however long it’ll be before I figure out what to post next… LOL.

Until then, stay awesome!

We Are Miniscule… And It’s Beautiful That Way!

I am in awe of how much of my lifetime so far I have spent thinking about, and acting on, what little of the vast, unimaginably grand and awe-inspiring universe I can see. Yes, it matters to me, my circle of friends, my species, and even perhaps my planetary home. But when you try to imagine the scale of these issues and accomplishments from the point of view of the universe, which is known to be 13.7 billion years old, and then wonder in utter awe what existed 14 billion years ago, or even 20 billion…

How do we know that the Big Bang was the beginning of time? Don’t get me wrong, I am wholeheartedly convinced that it happened, but the state of all matter before it can’t have come from nowhere, can it? Matter and energy cannot be created or destroyed, leaving me wondering what existed before THAT universe (or whatever it was at the time) collapsed into the size of the nucleus of a single atom. What caused it to collapse? Will our universe eventually arrive a similar fate? I think it’s safe to assume that if it ever does collapse again, no one alive today will still be alive when it happens. But to say the least, it’s interesting to ponder.

With all of this said, I am amazed – and infinitely inspired – by the comparison of our petty, momentary, insignificant worries and arguments to this incredible, but oh, so real universe and its history. What little we do know leaves me so humbled and awestruck that the thought of what we don’t know makes me feel completely grateful that I have stopped believing in a book that claims to answer everything.

This is not, not and NOT a jab at said book (the Bible), or the religions of the world. Hope can come from many places, and I mean no harm to any of my religious friends. My only wish is to share this feeling I have, this truly wonderful, HOPEFUL feeling that there’s so much more to existence, life, space and time than meets the eye.

Here is one YouTube video that opened my eyes to the universe:

Wintertusk – Here I’ve Come! :D

Announcement! Announcement! ANNOUNCEMENT!!

My most advanced wizard in Wizard101, Level 58 Life Wizard Rebecca Dreamhunter, finally made it through the Ravenscar questline to reach Wintertusk this morning! Naturally, I took video footage of her first few quests there. I’ll post them as soon as all of the loading time and other slow moments are edited out, leaving only the interesting stuff. :)

Ravenscar took her/me forever to get past, especially since I’ve been getting further in Celestia, too, and that’s where I’ve been getting my highest XP gains. Now, though, that will be a non-issue, thanks to my friend, Evan, who helped me defeat the head ravens of the evil Coven and put a stop to the Everwinter… or so my character thought. ;)

Call me mean, but I’m grateful to be fighting the ravens’ army again. The monsters in Wintertusk are Rank 9-10, as opposed to the Rank 6-8 monsters found in Ravenscar, so my guess is that they have the ability to Critical and Block during battle. That’s why I haven’t fought them yet. :P Yup, I’m a scaredy cat. The good news there is that I love all kinds of “cats.” :D

Anyway, kitty jokes aside… I’m just so psyched to be fighting Rank 9’s somewhere other than Celestia. You know, I like playing it safe, but there’s something satisfying about going into a battle with an equally or almost equally powerful creature… and winning. It really says something to me about courage, whether it’s my courage or not. :)

WIZARD101 FOR THE WIN! ;D

And thanks again and again, Evan S! Couldn’t have done it without ya!

Today’s Dream

One thing I’ve noticed about myself these past few years is, I seem to have a different dream every day. I think today’s dream is to be a backup singer. Here I am, singing and harmonizing with the latest Glee songs as they play in iTunes: two from 4×11 Sadie Hawkins, and all the songs from 4×12 Naked and 4×13 Diva (I still haven’t found the courage to watch 4×14 “I Do,” though I read a fabulously in-depth synopsis here). I think I love harmonizing with the melodies even more than I love singing them myself.

I’m fully aware that no one may be reading my blog, so I’m going to stop here. But who knows what tomorrow’s dream will be? I guess I’ll find out when the time comes. ;)

I Just Want To Help!

You’ve seen me go on about Wizard101 and Pirate101; well, my favorite school of magic (from W101) is Life, because Life wizards can heal, and my favorite class (from P101) is Privateer, because they can also heal. I don’t only like to heal myself, either. The reason I chose these character types is because I like playing with other people, and not just playing, but helping. Especially on Wizard101, but on Pirate101 too, I will gladly and eagerly set aside what I’m doing to help a friend with fighting a boss or completing a dungeon.

My point is not to brag here. My point is to explain something about myself: I like to help out where I can, and will go out of my way to do so. Likewise, and this is the ultimate point of this post, I like to help in real, offline life whenever I can. This includes putting a smile on others’ faces when they are down, or really, at any time. Whether its giving a compliment or two, hurrying ahead to open the door for a stranger, volunteering in the community, or the like, I enjoy it. It makes me happy in return. That’s all the thanks I’ll ever need.

It’s the compliments I most wanted to talk about, though. I get a feeling when I give a lot of compliments to people, those words lose some of their strength. I’m not the kind of person who will lie to make people happy, but they say too much of any good thing can make it a bad thing. I’m not worried about my friends taking the compliments for granted. I’m worried about my friends not believing my compliments anymore.

That’s why I’m posting this. I’m not going to stop giving compliments – I refuse. But I do want people to know that I’m being honest, and that what I say I like about them, I really do like. I come from a long line of worriers, so I hope I’m just imagining all this about nice words losing their power to cheer other people up. From intention to reception, those words and their warmth need to keep their strength. I’m not saying them for nothing, after all.

Smile!

Daily Diary #2: Just Playin’ Scared

I know I haven’t posted daily as I’d planned to do. My bad, and I’m sorry for any disappointment. However, as the saying goes, if at first you don’t succeed, try, try again. And so…

If you’re the kind of person who likes playing those multiplayer online games where you do quests and fight monsters of some sort (and provided you aren’t downright reckless), you probably know what its like to put off your high-level quests once in a while because they seem to risky. This can lead to a lack of leveling-up as you go back to finish easier quests you didn’t finish yet, which earn you much smaller rewards and much less experience (XP).

Well, as much as I love Wizard101 and Pirate101, I’m avoiding most of my quests on both games with both of my main characters, Rebecca Dreamhunter (Wizard101) and Helpful Rebecca Mainstay (Pirate101).

In Wizard101, I’ve finished every side quest I had in Wizard City, Krokotopia and Marleybone, the first three worlds of the game, not counting side worlds like Grizzleheim and Wysteria. I have two quests left to finish in Mooshu, and then I’ll move on to Dragonspyre and finish all my quests there.

In Mooshu, there’s this place called the Cave of Solitude where, in order to get to the next goal of one of my quests there, I must cross a web of bridges that is populated by several very daunting creatures, including an Enraged Kraken and some other Storm monsters. I have been terrified of crossing these bridges since I first discovered their existence. The part that scares me is this: in almost any other area in the game that I’ve ever been to that has bridges, the creatures never travel along those bridges; they just stay on solid ground, so you are safe if you wait on any bridge. In the web in the Cave of Solitude, however, the creatures use the bridges often, which means you can’t wait on a bridge to plan your next move. You have to keep moving, and what’s worse, the creatures move at different speeds, and on every bridge, creatures move in both directions. Sound impossible? Strangely enough, I’ve made it across before without getting drawn into battle, but whatever strategy I used was nowhere near foolproof. I just happened to be lucky at the time. Grrah, I hate that place…

Meanwhile, on the world of Celestia, where Rebecca DH is supposed to be doing main quests, I refuse to battle alone at my level. I need at least one battle buddy there with me. The thing about Celestia is, the creatures there have access to the same rank of spells that I have, and they have a good chance to hit me twice as hard as normal with any spell, which is known as a critical hit. Though I also have this opportunity because I am over level 50, they also have the ability to block my critical hits, making them regular hits. I prefer to “crit” in Mooshu or Dragonspyre rather than Celestia, because creatures in the first few worlds can’t block it like the more advanced creatures can.

Anyway, in Pirate101, I have the task of battling Armada (aka military) ships in Valencia. I’m not fond of broadside combat, where you fight an enemy ship with cannons and such rather than fighting the enemy in person. My hands and my mouse just aren’t quick enough, or sure enough, to survive for long in that battle mode.

So, I guess that’s it for today! :P Thanks for reading!